love is everything.

plan:

get it done and run away into the sun.

execute.

they lied when they told us love conquers all

{while checking out books in the library the man at circulation asked me

“are you an artist?”

to which I replied

“yes. yes I am… It has taken me a long time to be able to say that with pride. Many people sneer at you when you tell them that you are an artist… they often ask, “what are you going to do with that?” Well make art of course is the answer. Either way, it feels good to just say that now.”

He smiled and responded

“I think being an artist is one of the most courageous things you can do. I think an artist simply is. It doesn’t matter how much work you sell or if you’re well known. If you are an artist, it is something you have inside. It is something that you are.”   }

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i thought that was a really nice interaction.

thank you mister librarian

this is what my spirit sounds like

violent dreams

i raise my hands to heaven of curiosity
i don’t know what to ask for
what has it got for me?
the others say we’re hiding
it’s as forward as can be
some things i do for money
some things i do for free

{whenever possible, i like my i’s in lowercase}

.

.

seriously though. how do you expect to get this done?

well, the way i always get it done when i end up in this place.

i mean, how are you going to just make it happen?

how do you manage to just make it happen?

well…

you see…

i’m not friends with defeat.

and

well

i have the choice as to whether or not i want to hang out with it and 

frankly

it just never seems like the thing to do

defeat and i

we

we just don’t really get along.

 sweet baby

i need fresh blood.

this is from one of my bestfriend’s and sister chloes blog.

she inspires me so much.

its nice to think in photo

my glowing sister shiny does it too…

i am a much better visual communicator

i think it would be a nice model to try

i am sick of studying for this exam

i constantly wish it was warm so i could say

and just for a second run and

it is starting to feel like

i love to learn but its about time to

i need to lay in the

and gaze at the

right now the cold makes me feel like that spring is this

far away

the sun came out the other day and i kicked off my shoes and basked in the sun

when i sat up… in that moment… i realized

i haven’t just been depressed

i’ve been starved of the sun

for you see… i am just like a flower

if I don’t get enough light

a part of me dies.

these moments of realization help to remind me

that when everything seems to feel like this

and when

that

and it is important to live here now

and

makes this all worthwhile.

i also realize that

if it weren’t for friendship

and the moonlight

i probably wouldn’t make it.

tomorrow is the last day until my break!

soon i’ll get to quit backing myself against a wall

and run out in the street and dance

i almost want it to rain just so i can

soon i’ll be with my family and my soul will feel like this

and eventually my love

(this next one is us)

in colorado

but no worries about that for now…

as much as i feel like my mind is just floating away

as much as i want to

my formal studies

i need to harness

and let them love me

for just a few more hours

so that i can peace the fuck out of this town

and go play

so on that note…

goodnight.

spring come to me.

i need your light